By the later days of summer, there is a kind of busyness that slips in quietly, then takes up residence. It arrives first in the slant of the afternoon light, in the way the shadows from the maple tree stretch farther across the grass than they did only a few weeks ago. In the garden, abundance begins to feel less like a promise and more like an appointment that cannot be missed.
The kale must be gathered before it grows too tough. Cucumbers hide beneath broad, scratchy leaves, waiting to become enormous the moment one turns one’s back. Tomatoes lean heavy and warm against their vines, their skins taut with sun. And zucchini—well, zucchini have a way of multiplying in the night, appearing beneath leaves like green boats washed ashore. There are bushels to carry in, bowls to fill, things to wash and give away and preserve. The kitchen counter becomes a kind of altar to late summer: red, green, gold; the sharp scent of basil; the clean snap of beans; the quiet work of hands.
And beneath it all comes that anxious realization: we are losing our grip on another season. Perhaps that is why we hurry.
There are always more things to tend than the daylight seems willing to hold. The ordinary responsibilities of caregiving do not pause because tomatoes are ripening. The thousand small details that follow my sister’s death still arrive, one after another—papers to read, calls to make, decisions that have waited too long already. There is the daily work of pastoral care: the phone call from someone whose heart is breaking, the prayer that needs to be offered, the sermon waiting for shape and breath. And always, there is writing—that insistent urgency of words that will not quite leave one alone.
None of this is a burden in the simple sense. Much of it is love. Much of it is vocation. Much of it is simply the work given to us while we are here.
Still, there are days when the hours feel like water running through cupped hands. I find myself making lists. I move from garden to desk, from desk to kitchen, from kitchen to the car and then back again. I answer an email while something simmers on the stove. I pause in a doorway and try to remember why I came into the room. I begin one task only to see three others waiting patiently behind it.
And then, just when I have gathered my attention into a narrow beam—when I have decided that this hour must be guarded, that I must not be drawn away—an interruption comes.
A dear friend calls.
“Just checking in,” she says.
There is nothing urgent in her voice. No crisis to solve, no appointment to arrange. Only the gift of her attention, offered freely across the miles. For a moment, I glance toward the list waiting on the table. I can almost feel the unfinished things shifting in the next room.
But then she says something that makes me laugh. Not the polite little laugh we offer to keep a conversation moving, but the kind that rises unexpectedly from somewhere deep in the chest. The kind that loosens something. The kind that reminds us that grief and gladness are not enemies; they have been sharing a house in us all along.
The minutes pass.
When the call ends, I return to the day—not with the list erased, not with every responsibility made lighter, but with my heart somehow less clenched. The interruption has become a small clearing in the woods.
Another interruption finds me in the garden. While reaching beneath a tangle of leaves, hunting for a cucumber that has surely hidden itself beneath the vines, I see a tiny, intricate green creature poised on the edge of a leaf. It is a praying mantis, newly arrived in the world. Small enough to rest easily on the tip of my smallest finger, it has the delicate architecture of something made from grass and prayer. Its body is slender and bright green, almost translucent in the sunlight. In miniature, its long front legs still fold upward, jointed and waiting, as though it has been caught in the middle of a blessing.
Its head turns.
That is what astonishes me most: the small triangular head slowly swiveling, its new eyes seeming to take in the whole garden. It is both fragile and fierce, a tiny creature of patience and precision. I crouch there longer than I mean to, cucumber forgotten, watching it hold its improbable stillness amid the restless leaves.
I think of all the things I had planned to do. I think of how little that mantis cares for my plans. Not because the work does not matter. The work matters deeply. The harvest matters. The phone calls matter. The papers and prayers and words matter. Perhaps this moment is also important work. Perhaps the soul needs these small interruptions in order to remember ourselves.
Later, I carried an iced coffee to the lily pond, intending only to sit for a few minutes before returning to the day. I told myself I would drink it quickly. I would rest just long enough to gather myself. Then I would go back inside and begin again.
But the koi had other ideas.
They moved beneath the lily pads in slow flashes of gold and white and orange, their bodies slipping through the dark water like thoughts too beautiful to hold. One rose near the surface, turning just enough for the sun to catch its scales. Another disappeared beneath a broad green pad, leaving only the smallest ripple behind.
The pond was alive with lilies. Their blossoms opened above the water—white petals, soft pink at the center, yellow hearts offered to the afternoon. Bees moved lazily among them. A dragonfly hovered, then darted away. The air held that warm, watery scent of August: damp earth, pondweed, sun-warmed stone.
For a little while, I did not measure the day by what had been completed. I measured it by the float of koi through lily pads. By a praying mantis lifted in prayer. By the sound of a friend laughing with me across the phone. By the peculiar holiness of being drawn away from my own urgency.
There will always be something asking for our attention. The season will continue its turning. The garden will ask to be gathered. Grief will ask to be carried. People will need care. Words will wait, then press forward again.
But grace, I am learning, does not always arrive as an addition to our crowded days. Sometimes it arrives as an interruption. Sometimes grace is the voice on the phone saying, “I just wanted to check in.” Sometimes it is a tiny green creature, still as prayer, waiting at the edge of the garden. Sometimes it is an iced coffee by the pond, a blossom opening, a fish moving slowly beneath the leaves. And sometimes the holiest thing we can do is let ourselves be interrupted—long enough to remember that we are not only here to finish the work.
We are here to receive the day.
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