Between What Has Been and What Is Becoming

Stepping out this morning feels a little like waking into another world, though the ground beneath my feet insists it is the same one I have been stumbling through all week.

Only yesterday, the air clung like a cold, drenched cloth draped over everything—trees, fields, my own shoulders. The wind came in sideways, needling any uncovered skin, and the temperature hovered just above freezing, as if winter were threatening to reclench its fist. Water still runs off the back hill, gathering in the gully, dragging gravel from the drive—leaving the work of ruts behind.

But today is altogether different. Today arrives with its coat unbuttoned.

Seventy-five degrees, warm enough to draw me outside without hesitation. A breeze lifts off the wide waters and moves across the yard as if it has come to greet me personally—fingertips brushing the edges of my sleeves, polite but unmistakably alive. Above me, clouds drift round and full like lanterns, white as brushed silk against a sky so blue it calls up the color of my father’s eyes. Every time I look up, I feel the small tug of memory, gentle and steady as a hand at my back.

The fields, still puddled from the long parade of storms, are greening at the edges. New color rises through the mud, declaring itself without a fuss. The creeks tell a different story—raging, swollen, wild with the week’s accumulation. They do not whisper; they roar.

Early willows, stirred by the breeze, announce spring with the slightest sway, their thin branches inviting. Forsythia have begun to unfurl their gold, bright flags along the fence line. And the star magnolia—always the one to hesitate—holds its furry buds close, though not quite closed. Any day now, they will burst open in a flurry of allegiance.

Overhead, two turkey vultures trace slow, deliberate circles above the hill and open field. Their wings wide, catching the light and trailing soft-moving shadows across the slope. They make a kind of quiet majesty of it, gliding on invisible currents, finding their way without hurry or strain.

It occurs to me, standing here, that this season is not so different from life as I know it. One day, everything feels cold and pressed in, a tightness that draws the shoulders inward. The next, something gives—a little warmth, a brief clearing, a shaft of sunlight insisting its way through.

Nothing announces itself with trumpets. No heralding angels descend with news of what comes next. More often it is this: a breeze off the lake, the sudden softness of a cloud, the arc of wings above the vineyard. Small things that shift the heart almost imperceptibly, until you realize you are breathing more freely than before.

Perhaps transition is less about the grand gestures we imagine—thunder, lightning, revelation—and more about subtler invitations. The gentle opening. The quiet realignments. The morning does not insist on meaning. It simply offers itself: warm air, moving water, greening field, circling wings. And I find myself standing here—not quite ready to name it, but ready enough to stay and listen.


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